Wow, been a week already....

Wow, it's been a week already...where does the time go anymore?...seems like it's been hectic or something going on and I haven't had time to myself like I might get in the evening to blog or whatever or let loose (cry to keep me going)...

Sorry, I re-read this and had too many errors...so am fixing them if you happen to get this a second time...again, I apologize.

He had those appointments for blood work, then the two tests (CT, bone scan) back to back and us missing naps...still trying to recoup and catch up...but also we have offered our home to daughter's fiance' and his dad...Shaun has been working 3 days a week sometimes 4 days...escorting his dad to doctors appointments, etc...his dad got laid off and filed for unemployment and then come to find out he gets turned down because he can't look for work...but got info that they are going to call and talk with him...mean time, he puts call into Social Security Disability and his phone appointment is today...Shaun trying to handle it all...so til things/economy turns around they are staying with us...we did some rearranging in the house...still recouping from that and the appts...with my sarcoidosis if I over do it...I get set back and my energy, etc is zapped out of me and sometimes takes awhile for me to recoup...

He's still hurting and seems like it's getting worse...we're still trying to make adjustments to his meds...went from 1 every 6 hours and 2 at bed from 1-2 every 5 hours depending how he feels and 2 at bed...with naproxen 'tween...the cool weather isn't helping either...just feeling frustrated...he doesn't want to just lay in bed and give up so I've convinced him to bump up to every 5 hours and see how that works...also have a call put into the doctor...did the infusion get approved by the insurance and if so is there a chance we can get it sooner than April 15 (besides working with the sutent on the slowing it down, it helps strengthens his bones and helps take some more of the pain away...he doesn't want to do radiation for the pain as it will cause sores as well)...then do it again on the 15th as my understanding it's every 3-4 weeks...assuming it's the "zometa" that he will be getting in that infusion...????

I'm trying to hang in there and sometimes when I don't have my quiet time/nap or time at night to let loose sometimes I don't think I'm going to make it but then I talk to God at night and leave it in his hands...I do good for a short while...mostly day to day...

Do you ever feel like once in a while things pile up too much and you just want to throw everything into a pile and set a torch to it????....start fresh body, mind and otherwise....sometimes life gets too complicated and it shouldn't be that way...do too much, please too many...as a saying sez, "Be useful and don't be used"...now, I'm probably not making any sense...hahahaha...just letting loose....

I have my headphones on listening to music while writing this and Dolly's song "I will always love you" came on...that's one of our songs when we first met...he was asking what the names were so he could write them in his journal that Tam got for him at Christmas...oh now, "A Summer Place" is playing...Henry Mancini, sorry just checked its 101 Strings playing it...

Anyway, hope elf...eryone else is doing as best as possible with whats going on in this world/economy and phone rang...brb...doctor said infusion was approved for zometa and that he can go up to every 4 hours on his lortab but if he wants to do infusion sooner that April 15h to call and he'll set it up...he's awake and wanting lunch so will go for now...forgive any errors...much luv to all...:D

Test results...

Yes, we made the trip to Georgetown...tired now...has been a busy week and a half...not fully rested up yet...still going...need to make banana bread...he keeps looking for it...lol...

Well, weez bak...got lunch out of the way and he is laying down for nap
and I will be soon...Tam went back to Vegas this morn' again...yeah, she
came home again yesterday after class...working on art project and was
trying to get idea in head and see what art/craft supplies I have for her to
use...

Shaun still trying to move him and his dad's stuff over and just got off
work at 7am...now at 1pm he's helping a friend that lives in the same complex
and who he works with - to move his friend's big stuff...yeah, this economy has everyone hurting...anyway he'll be here little while to get sleep for work tonight...

I was up with Tam last night trying to help her in some way with ideas
and items to use...gotz to bed at 1am...up at 6am when alarm went off...got
ready and we left early for Georgetown cuz I had to drop off an empty oxygen
tank that Martina gave me two of last Friday at the hospital and she said she trusted me to bring in my other empty today...

Well, I know you're thinking get to the news...lol...ok ok ok....:D :D :D :D ;( :(
:( :(

Doc had mixed answers/results...good and somewhat bad....good the CT showed
the tumor in the kidney shrunk some and the liver no new growth...maintaining
there...nothing showing in his other organs...ORGANS...

Now for the bonees.........bONeS somewhat bad...its working but has spread that's
why it seemed dimmer to me....shoulders/arms, legs/hips...it's not in the ribs/spine yet like I thought it might might be...but that's why he's hurting more too....
Doc suggested chemo...he said no....he didn't want to be sick/puck...trips however
often to get IV chemo, would rather do the pill he's doing now...no radiation for the
pain and then have sores from it plus again the trips...so his medications routine for lortabs has changed and he's to play with it to decide what works and then go with it...instead 1 every 8 hours and naproxen in between...it's to be 1 every six hours maybe 2 at bedtime...with naproxen in between as needed...

Also getting approval from insurance for him to get once a month when he sees doctor an infusion of a bone strengthener called "e" something...can't remember name but will find out when Jackie calls and says insurance approved it or not...I called the specialty prescription mail-order pharmacy to have his next refill of "Sutent" sent FedEx and be delivered on Monday...so that's where it is so far...so it looks like its taking longer for the sutent to work on his bones...

He still has monthly blood to do and see the doctor again April 15th for office visit and then the "infusion" if it gets approved. Then see if based on how he feels to continue using "sutent' or try another chemo pill on a month to month basis or go till his 6th round of "sutent" and then do CT and bone scan again for results and make changes then....

We talked and we kind of fig'd this but still hopeful...he's fighting but he realizes its just putting off the inevitable...but giving him more time with us...:D he's also trying to think of me...you make the decision what you want and we'll work with it and get whatever scheduled...

So I think I have covered everything...feel like I'm antsy from being so tired...feel like I'm climbing the walls expression...lol...gotz to go he wants up here in 15 mins...

The wind has been blowing like the dickens here but not so bad in Georgetown...coming through the Gorge into town, I sometimes felt like the van was
going to get picked up and thrown around the way it blew...lol...

It's definitely my time to take a nap or I won't make it tonight and will be cryin' just to make it through the evening...have to watch Am. Idol to see who made the top 3 this week...lol...he picked the three last week and he's hoping again this week he picked the right ones...lol...

Elf...eryone have a good evening and don't let the bed bugs bite...:D :D :D :D
take care and much luv

Long past two days...

The past two days have been too long...I always dread trips to Georgetown especially when they are two and four hours long plus drive time to and from...I know the tests/appts are needed...we both missed our naps yesterday...

Refresh you'll...he had blood work Tuesday then did the CT abdomen/liver/kidney yesterday...he had to drink a cup of this barium liquid every 15 minutes til all gone and I believe it was a 32 ounce bottle...then he had about 45 minutes left before they called him in for the CT...that took about 20 minutes and we were able to head home...he didn't use the manual wheelchair just his cane...he said he was sorry he did...stood/walked on his leg too much and he had a burning sensation...decided he was going to use the manual wheelchair today...we will get results on that Wednesday, March 4th late morning so when we get home I will post as soon as possible...

LOL...we watched Am Idol results last night...Allison got picked the top 3 and we were pullin' for her...whoo hoo...we both kept saying everyone the night before picked wrong songs to sing...ughhhhh....except a few...

Today, we were up early 530 a.m. to get to Georgetown new hospital for the nuke shot and then wait (yes, again...lol...3 hours though not 4) when they called him back I was able to go in again...he lays on this table and the scanner slowly starts scanning...you're sitting there wondering when they are going to start it until I looked over at the computer screen/monitor and I see the top of his head...on the screen it shows front side and back side...like I told him I don't remember everything but the places where he was lit up like a Christmas tree are still there but dimmer? like I said I could be wrong but also it looks like its in the ribs and spine but dimly...if that makes any sense...when the tech came out and darkened the screen the only thing showing up like a BRIGHT STAR on a black screen was his kidney...nothing changed there that I could see...now for his leg the tumor is still there but looks dimmer...we both talked about it and he's not giving up being optimistic cause that spot on his hand is gone just a faint outline/shadow like dimmer...:D...so your continued prayers for the best results on Wednesday...we'll also know whether he'll continue on the "Sutent" by the results or his body being given a break and something else started...he's looking at asking for something a little bit stronger in a pain medicine like lortab 10/325mg...he's on lortab 7.5/325mg plus naproxen...that leg of his gives him a fit when he's on it too much but trying to keep his muscle strength up as much as possible...

He went to coffee this afternoon after we got back instead of taking break and doing a nap, so we both have missed our naps again...although I could have but wanted to blog...lol...caught my head bobbin' :D...he's home and now I need to go and see about dinner...our niece will be in town this weekend and will be good to see her again...Hope elf...eryone has a super duper wkend and be safe!!!!

Much luv to all <3

p.s. I just finished the book "The Shack" highly recommend it!!!!!!!!!!!

Sluggish...

Yesterday we were both sluggish...I had no energy and all I wanted to do was sleep so didn't go for labs...he slept quite a bit too...lol...blame it on the weather always...:D...but got up this morning had same amount of sleep as night before and felt like I had more energy...still tired...

I got his breakfast, did my breathing treatment (nebulizer) and got cleaned up and had a quick bite (S.B. meal replacement bar) and Shaun was here and he followed us over to hospital to get labs and he took care of the wheelchair (manual) and pushed him...his leg still bothering him...stopped at bank with trips to Georgetown in couple days would need mula...:D...

He wanted to stop by ma's and see her for a few minutes and give her the weekly newspapers after we read them...gives her something to read plus keep up on what might be going on around town...she don't get out much either...ma's doing pretty good...:D...while he was doing that I slipped away and got gas...called Shaun to see if he could fill me up...I beat him there but thought uhmmmm...maybe I'll see if I can fill it myself...I did...just took off ox hose long enough to use card and put hose in tank and let self pump...then put ox hose back on for a few while filling...at least I know I can do it as long as the pump takes my card...I don't have to run in...went back and Shaun pulled up behind me (he didn't get my text) at ma's and Tim just came out and you could tell he wasn't walking very good...got him home and he laid down for a bit til lunch...

Busy messing on the computer...I had caught an error I made with my quicken and was posting stuff in the archive file and not 2009 file...ugh...just glad I caught early enough and not in middle of the year...got call from my mom...she's doing good after her eye surgery...sis will be there for few days and she takes mom back "bright light bright light" jk...bright and early for follow up in a few days...prayed it would go well for mom as last year a surgery didn't go right and she had us worried there for a while...

Tim and I wondering about a lit'l birdie...hope everyone else doin' good and sending well wishes to all...ewwwwwwww it's raining...jk...in my headphones...lol...gotta go and finis movie and hit the sack...have a good day!!!!!!!!!!

Sometime...

It's been sometime (week) that I've blogged but I know everyone likes to keep informed on how he's doing...the nicer weather makes it better but he still hurts...he says he's alright but his body language sometimes says otherwise...I asked him this evening if he was hurting more than usual and he just looked at me and said yes...

He's thinking about asking for something a little bit stronger on March 4Th when we go see the doctor and get test results that we will be doing next week...his monthly blood work Tuesday at Mesa...Thursday Georgetown for the CT abdomen/kidney...he has to sit and drink this white stuff within a two hour period...like a cup every 15 minutes...Friday Georgetown again for nuclear shot takes four hours (have to find something to do or just bring our mp3's and book and sit in van so he can at least lay down and rest that hip/leg that gives him problems) to get into his bones good enough and then has whole body bone scan done...

I was in there the first time and I could see on the monitor across the room the difference...it's like he is lit up like a Christmas tree...the nuclear shot shows where all the tumors are...his body gets scanned topside and backside...

A while back, I said in the blog that he has a spot on his hand and he brought it to my attention after the first round on "Sutent" that it was getting smaller...well, that spot is gone on his hand now...but I wonder about the bigger tumors...if they've shrunk or stopped growing?...I pray that it has...he dislikes taking the "Sutent"...gives bad taste in his mouth...told him I was surprised he is able to eat as good as he does...

Since the family doctor put him on Coreg for the rapid pulse/blood pressures...the medicine seems to be doing the trick...I still keep an eye on his glucose levels too...so far so good

Feel like I should be blogging more...had weeds pulled in the yard today by a couple boy scouts...didn't catch their names...he was talking with them...while I went and got some Roundup for him...but also got a new shower head and doorbell cover...tehe...I changed them so he wouldn't be trying to do it...still not able to use his arm hardly after fractured/broke...he still wears brace but takes off (overnight) when it gets to bothering him...as I told our niece Cheri today, I was the busy bbbbbbeeeeee...groceries, prescriptions, mail, hardware store, meals, laundry...watched movie true story Napa Valley wine making..."Bottle Shock" pretty good...but the movie that got me the most the other night...did some laughing but also some crying...deals with relationships, love, being God centered...it just made a lot of sense..."Fireproof"...thought it was a movie about fires, etc...but it's on fireproofing your relationship/marriage...story line was on fires and the fire dept but intertwined with fireproofing marriages...

Tam came home this weekend instead of next weekend...has to work on a Saturday-been awhile...but also coming home, she past the speedway and realized Nascar is going to be in Vegas next weekend and traffic is terrible on 15 and Nellis etc...but also to meet Shaun's grandfather...he drove up to see how his son Ken (Shaun's dad) is doing and help if he can...he has been in the hospital and had stints put in his leg and aorta and doing better but still may loose his big toe...so prayers are needed for Ken...prayers for Shaun too to sustain him and help him find strength to take care of his dad and work as well...

Weather suppose to be getting up in 70's and sunny...hope that keeps up for next week when we have the appointments...don't like to be out in the wet weather...

Okay, I think I've been going on long enough so I will say GoOdNiTe to aLl...have a gr8t wkend elf...eryone :D

Happ:D Valentine's Day...

It's Valentine's Day...lots of luv to elf...eryone...tehe...after his and my morning nap short one at that...he went to coffee with a friend so I got started dusting...daughter came home for the long weekend...she got a bit upset cause I told her I was going to vacuum and I needed to get it started...he came home and got upset with me too...so I let her do the rest of the vacuuming and I mopped the floors...so my Valentine's gift was a clean home...that's all I wanted besides having a nice dinner and dessert for all...

Because he wasn't able to get out and shop for a card and flowers, etc...I didn't do the same on grocery day...I didn't want to make him feel bad...besides it's what you feel in your heart and being together is enough...I cleaned fresh strawberries and dried them off and then melted Hershey's dark chocolate chips and started out with 2 Tbspoons half and half...stirred and stirred and stirred and slowly started adding more half/half til I got the consistency I want (not runny but dippable but not drippy...luv my description :D) and proceeded to dip all the strawberries for our dessert after dinner....that was our treat for each other plus the kids, Tamra and Shaun...I fixed cubed pork chops, mashed, etc...very good...so for a change I felt the day was pretty productive besides full of LOVE...

He's still hurting so not much has changed there...everyone saying its cold in the house so having heater turned up...he says his shoulders are starting to bother him...when he has a warmer shirt on they don't bother him as much...so that's why we feel the cool, damp weather is making him hurt more...be glad when it warms up...;D

Oh, the movie "Secret Life of Bees" is good...had me crying a few times...relationships, truths, feeling needed but also about bees, etc...

I hope elf...eryone else had a gOoD dAy :D...weather was rather nice too, afraid it was going to be rainy...fixin' to watch a Hallmark movie for Valentine's Day...

Well, it's that time so have a super SuNdAy!!!! lata

Daddy's Poem...

Daddy's Poem

Her hair was up in a ponytail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mummy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the back wall,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called
a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mum.
And looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories,
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.

'Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart."
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favourite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far.

You see he is a soldier
And died just this past year
When a roadside bomb hit his convoy
and taught brave men to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and saw him there that day.

And to her mother's amazement,
she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.

By Jodi Tatum

I wanted to put this in my blog for our daughters
even though the situation is different but the feelings
of love are the same...

Bank Account Tag...

I thought this Bank Account tag would be nice to play tag with but not sure how everyone would get it...it's also smaller than I thought it would be...not sure it
can be read...I'm going to add this lit'l note as I won't know til I publish post and then click the pic for the bank account to make bigger to read so you can try it too if need be...

I would like to blog but I really don't have anything...he's still hurting but saves his energy up so he can go to coffee with the guys in the afternoons so that he feels he still has some normalcy in his life...this weather isn't helping either as I feel its making him hurt more...

Jack whose is my baby now as he would say...lol...our pet chihuahua...has most definitely a character all his own...lol...but he's been acting a lit'l legarthic and hesitating hopping up on the cinder blocks to get up on the porch (too big a hop to get on the porch without them, even for me too...lol...) after going out and I started thinking maybe this weather is affecting him too...he let out a couple cries earlier in the week when I tried to pick him up...so after his grooming I took him to the vet had some blood work done and checked for a rash and got meds for him to take for five days...he's had it for 2 days so far and I noticed he doesn't hesitate hopping up on the cinder blocks to the porch...like his bursitis isn't bother him anymore...found out he had it last summer before the kids come out and it was showing in his shoulders...

Valentine's Day is coming up and I wish elf...eryone a day full of fun, love, togetherness and prayers... <3

Expressions of Love...

To express his feelings of love and have it sound as good as his words might be a bit hard but I'm going to try...he's had a few rough days of more pain than usual and we are just hoping it's mostly the damp, wet and rainy weather...

He goes out on the porch and he has time to think, more as his quiet time...earlier he was thinking all this and didn't say nothing to me til later...I guess what brought it up was earlier in the day something was said about the girls and I said that Charli feels her baby sister Tamra has the heart of gold and is an inspiration to her...

He proceeded to tell me tonight that there must have been a reason why Charli and I were brought into his life and that we both are very special to him...that he loves us so dearly more than he knows how to express...that even though Charli isn't his by blood, he'd swear...lol...up and down she is...we have brought so much into his life even with the rough times at different stages of our lives but we all got through it together...this is hard....so hard...he's glad I'm here to help him through all this but that he worries about me...not too mention the icing on the cake was when Tamra was born...she has brought joy to him and he is proud of both his daughters...what they've accomplished and what they stand for in their values...he sees allot of me in Charli that we both are strong and don't give up...Tamra just barely getting her life started but her accomplishments with college and doing it all on her own...she's a giggler...lol...as one of her professors said...she's going to be a Happ:D teacher...she can be quiet/shy at times but definitely a strong young lady...










He wanted me to make sure I blogged his feelings for the girls and me...that he doesn't always show love very well (I don't agree-he does!!!!) or how to and not a man of many words...I disagree again as he eloquently expressed them tonight but I don't think I did him justice in trying to blog it for him...

He loves you girls very, very much...wants you to be happ:D in your lives and be strong...God he loves us so....<3

Getting out...

Getting out is what he wanted even if he was hurting, so I made myself get ready because I had errands I have been putting off for about a week...he went with me and we made four stops...the only time he got out was at the grocery/pharmacy store...groceries were needed and I had prescriptions I went online and ordered on Wednesday for us...he sat in the lounge area while getting the prescriptions but decided he wanted to go back to the van while I got groceries and not sit in lounge area...as late as it was we made a stop for lunch on the way home and then the mail...ha ha ha...that's getting to be a joke...I think I'll start checking it every other day, doesn't seem to be anything in the box anymore...have been checking it for daughter's W-2 corrected one at that...

As soon as we got home, he took a naproxsen...he said he was hurting pretty bad...I'm starting to think it's this storm we got coming in...he ate lunch while I carried groceries in and I put them away in between daughter :D texting me...I was giving her the red smiley face...lol...anyway, he laid down and said he was really hurting and started crying...said out loud to himself have the faith, I can do it...he slept for about an hour and a half...just woke up...still hurts but not as bad...the weatherman says 70% chance rain today...started to sprinkle on way to do errands this morning but stopped...whoo hoo...now at 2:30p.m. the skies are clouded up more and some areas look darker...


He just made a comment after getting up that he doesn't ever want to feel like that again...I don't want you to either to myself but you will be down the road eventually and worse babe...don't want to see it happen...

Guess better go for now...need to make up a drink mix for him to help with his bowels...we found that 1 tsp of powered magnesium in warm water 3 times a day helps better than Phillips milk magnesia...whew...nasty stuff he says...

Well, I think I just heard thunder...yeah it's been fairly warm here too...anyway, maybe while he's at coffee with friends (even if he is hurting) I'll make up my green drink and put in fridge to chill so I can get started back on it and drink at every meal...maybe, I'll get my energy back again too...it's been pretty sluggish since all this has come about....

Well, take care and blog some more lata...:D

Henry Poole Is Here...

While he was sleeping I watched the movie "Henry Poole Is Here"...I reaaaaaaaly enjoyed it...I almost didn't pick it up to watch...talk about an inspirational movie-a MuSt SEE!!!!...HOPE, FAITH, BELIEFS and MIRACLES...how we all struggle and cope with the ups and downs in our lives...where most of us go to find that strength that we all need to help get through our worst days but also our good days-to say ThAnK yOu God!!! for helping us to leave it in your hands and to have that HOPE, FAITH and LOVE that our BELIEFS will guide us through...so true for us ;}...I luv the music in the movie to which I will see about getting the soundtrack...

He says last few days have been hard cause of the aches and he's still taking the naproxsen in between the lortabs...all we can do is guess that this 3rd round of "sutent" is working or maybe it is a combo of things...weather and/or arthritis, too...I don't like to see him hurt cause he says he's okay and will continue to try and walk some with the cane and how he wants to do things...

I was looking at photos today and noticed how his color looks good compared to when we found out he had cancer...his hands I think have good color and almost look young...lol...outside of the signs of old age...he disagreed, thought they were too pale looking ;)...

The wind is picking up tonight as the storm/rain is to be coming through tomorrow...with 50% chance on Saturday...I'm just glad we're not having that cold, snowy weather our oldest is having back East...when I see the temperature on the desktop-all I can do is say, "cunch cunch cunch cunch" like walking on the snow...brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...I don't miss those cold days in Alaska, Montana, Wyoming or Henderson snow....it's cold enough here without the snow...hahaha :D

Henderson











Well, as usual it's after midnight again and I'm still up...he says I catch my second wind at night and that's why I want to sleep most the morning after breakfast when he does...I don't really get anything done but blog, listen to music and/or watch a movie...if i knew it wouldn't wake him I would turn up my oxygen and music and clean house...tehe tehe....yeah, if there's music I like I blast it....within reason!!!!!!!!!!!....

GoOd NiGhT ElF...eRyOnE!!!! Enjoy your weekend coming up and definitely TGIF!!!!!!
tehe

I hAvE Been TagGeD...

The Rules:
1. Go to your documents/pictures.
2. Go to your 6th file.
3. Go to your 6th picture.
4. Blog about it.
5. Tag 6 people to do the same.
6. So here we go....












This was taken July 2008 when our oldest daughter Charlene "Charli" and her family came out from Indiana for their vacation. Our youngest daughter Tamra was celebrating her 21st b-day so we were having cake/ice cream and taking pictures. This is Charli and her oldest daughter (our granddaughter) Melissa posing for the picture. Mel likes trying to be a ham and I'm surprised she wasn't sticking her tongue out...lol...like she does in most of her poses but this one shows her B E A U T I F U L smile just like her mom's!!!!!

I now tag...

1-Tamra
2-Sandra
3-Amy
4-Angela

Sorry don't have six and can't Brit she's already been tagged...I think...or can I?

Super Bowl Day...

We don't usually watch sports but somehow super bowl always gets turned on...which is kool...but I don't totally understand it...I try but I think every year I always ask the same questions...

I remember one time years ago while living in Colorado my sister Robin and a bunch of us and friends got together to watch it....lol...I just happened to ask the WRONG question...:D...I thought it was still pregame and asked, "so when does the game start?"...lol...it was in half time...yeah...I got some funn:D looks...

I was resting while it was on today and heard Larry Fitzgerald Sr and his son talking and they happened to mention his wife...I believe the son said his father Larry was too emotional...Larry said he loved his wife dearly and always will and it made me think of Tim and what he keeps telling me...Larry's wife passed away and of course I related to it with what is going on with us...like I said in one of my last few blogs...you start settling into a routine again after all the tests and getting hit hard with the news...then one day, a tender moment, a song, a conversation, whatever and you realize that's going to be you going through it one of these days and it's hard not to tear up...you wonder how you can do it all over again like a broken record...with prayers and knowing you have time somehow makes it okay...for now :D...

We're doing fine and have settled pretty much into a regular routine of things and just take one day at a time and enjoy each others company even if we don't say or do much...we especially enjoy everyone that comes over to visit off and on too...so with prayers maybe we'll have that time together with a quality of life and enjoy each others company like when he had planned to do it when he retired in a few years and but it happened sooner...

So, he's been on the "Sutent" four days now but since last week he's started using naproxsen in between the lortab as the ache is bit stronger again like in the beginning and the naproxsen is helping...but he's finally admitted he's thinks he's been trying to use his arm and walk on leg too much to help get his strength back...so he's backed off a little...other than that the coreg is working on the blood pressure/rapid pulse...and he's being careful of what he eats to keep the blood sugars low but then again they can go up from the "Sutent" and "Coreg" too...so he has a double whammy...

Well, I think I'll get off here as this year I was late getting paperwork and figures proofed for tax filing (which I do in December) and I finally finished up last night or rather this morning at 3:30 a.m. (the night before I was trying to get half of it enter into program and was up til 2:30 a.m.)...it doesn't help cause then all I want to do is sleep all morning but don't as I take care of most of his needs...I lay down usually when he does...lol...unless I get started on something else...like he says I seem to get my second wind in the evening and time gets away from and then it's late...he takes his last dose of medicine at 11 p.m. before bed and that's when sometimes I'm still up and shouldn't be...

So, good night...sweet dreams...ELF..eryone have a super duper week and Happy Groundhog Day 2morrow!!!!...:D

Letter to dad...

Tim brought this to my attention and said to read it...he liked what it said...from local paper today...

A Letter to my Dad

By Jim Sida 01-28-2009



Dear Dad:
I wanted to write you this letter to get your take on what I might describe as a cloud hovering over our nation, a very dark cloud I might add.

As you know Barack Obama has been elected as our 44th President and he has taken over as the leader of our country in very difficult times.

While I am very sure that our former President, George W. Bush would rather have had greater success, I’m afraid that he left quite a mess.

With wars being waged on two fronts, the global fight against terrorism and a world economy in chaos, I can’t say that I would want to be in President Obama’s shoes.

Quite frankly, I pray for him and for his success for many reasons, but Dad, this is why I’m writing.

You see there is this radio talk show host who publicly said that he hoped that President Obama fails in his quest as our leader.

I know that you’re going to tell me not to worry about this guy, and yes I remember your trademark saying, “Life is too short to be little”.

I get the positive nature of your philosophy, but here’s the problem Dad, I was watching the news and they reported that American companies laid off 73,000 workers today because of the economic doldrums that we find ourselves in.

The announcer said it was the largest one-day mass layoff of workers in modern U.S. history.

This comes on the heels of the recent lay-off of about 350 workers here in Mesquite and that’s a lot of people out of work for a little town like ours.

Let me get back to this Limbaugh guy.

When I first heard that he uttered that he wanted President Obama to fail, I chalked it up to one of his bombastic, off the cuff comments.

Boy was I ever surprised when I listened to his comment and discovered that he said it in all seriousness and with a straight face; clearly not with tongue in cheek.

So here is my question to you Dad – Why do you think that Limbaugh would want our President to fail?

Doesn’t he care about all of the good hard working Americans that will suffer if President Obama fails?

Maybe it’s because he’s a multi-millionaire that he doesn’t care what happens to the rest of us?

I just don’t get it Dad, maybe the reason Limbaugh’s obscene comment strikes me so hard is because I remember you telling me of your life during the Great Depression and living in the dustbowl plains of Oklahoma.

I remember that you told me that starvation stalked your family during those hard times and that there were many occasions that you literally had nothing to eat.

I remember you telling me of a reoccurring nightmare you had, in which you and your family were starving to death.

I was touched when you told me that after one of these bad dreams that you forced yourself to imagine riding your horse across the rolling hills of Oklahoma in order for you to ward of the memory of the nightmare and go back to sleep.

Did anyone back then say that they wanted President Roosevelt to fail?

I don’t know Dad, maybe it’s because we’ve lived in such affluence for so long that people just can’t imagine that kind of suffering in America today.

I have to tell you, I sure hope they are right by God, because you see, 73,000 good Americans lost their jobs today and it frightens me.

Listen Dad, don’t worry about me as we’ve saved and think that we’ll be able to ride out this storm, but I can’t help but worry about all of the folks who will probably be laid off tomorrow.

I can’t help but worry for those 73,000 souls who woke up this morning only to find out that their lives have been inexorably changed—they are now unemployed.

I especially worry for our neighbors here in Mesquite that are now out of work.

I worry for these families and for their children.

So you see Dad, I am desperately praying for President Obama’s success.

It makes sense doesn’t it Dad, that his success will be collectively all of our success?

Anyway Dad, I’ll quit gabbing and just ask you straight out.

What do you think that we ought to do about this Limbaugh fellow?

I know that you are a wise man and I know that you’ll have the right advice for me regarding this matter.



Dear Son:

You know the First Amendment of our Constitution gives this Limbaugh guy the right to say what he wants, no matter how ridiculous and abhorrent his views are.

Ultimately, I have to think that the vast majority of Americans who listen to his show will utterly reject his silly nonsense.

Additionally, I know that you live in a community with a large population of retired persons.

My guess is that while they aren’t as old as me, I’ll just bet that like you, they remember the Great Depression either through personal experience or through family lore, so I can’t imagine that they would agree with this Limbaugh fellow.

What you tell me is troubling indeed so I do have some advice that might be able to help you and others deal with this nutty broadcaster.

Here is what I think that you must do.

It’s important that you do exactly as I tell you.

You must follow my instructions unfailingly and with great resolve.

Hear me now, the next time you are driving in your car and Mr. Limbaugh comes on the radio, just take a deep breath, then take your right hand off of the drivers’ wheel and calmly move your right hand in the direction of the radio—then turn it off!



As a postscript to this letter and as a matter of full disclosure, my father passed away in 1977. I wish he were here today as I’m sure that he would have given me this advice.

So in honor of his memory I will do just as he would have wanted—turn Rush Limbaugh off.

Third round sutent...

Today is the day for him to start the third round of "Sutent"...last few days he has opened up and said he wished he could sleep on his sides but he can't cause his shoulders hurt...also cause his hips hurt from sleeping on backside all the time...

He's been hurting more last few days too and if I remember right he said the same thing last month right before he went back on the "sutent"...decided yesterday to take naproxen in between lortab and it made a difference to him and wasn't hurting as bad...I still think he is over doing it but only he knows how he feels...he doesn't always express it to me so I ask cause I watch his body language and listen to (whether he realizes it or not) sounds coming from him...

Tam got him a journal asking for information, etc for Christmas....he's been writing in it more and more...another concern is he's talking in his sleep again and this isn't brought on by morphine as he's off that stuff...naproxen is just an anti-imflammatory medicine like for arthritis...as he has that too...last three days I have to re-explain what I just said like he's not understanding what I said so I have to tell him again...I'm hoping its just cause he is worried about finances since we are still waiting to hear from workmans comp on his broken arm and short term disability through work since workmans comp stopped checks on Dec 16, 2008 pending doctors evaulation and it's not the cancer spreading...so it makes me wonder....maybe I'm reading more into it...yep....

Kids got hit with the ice storm and no school...hope they are staying warm and cozy indoors...still wonder bout them...wishin' they lived closer...

I thought my music playlist had some tear jerk songs on it but...Hunter's blog has music that makes me tear up...please continue prayers for that young man...the doctors had to induce his coma state again...just click his name to read his blog and status...

Not sure what is better...going HOME quickly or slowly watch your loved ones go HOME...like with cancer...always wondering do I leave them alone for awhile to do things...not wanting to be away for very long...you don't want to loose any precious time with them...even if you don't do much or talk all the time...their presents is all you really need and love...

Anyway, the doctors office called yesterday and he is scheduled for the CT abdomen/pelvis on Thursday Feb 26th and whole body bone scan on Friday Feb 27th...labs need to be drawn on Tuesday Feb 24th...before tests but also for doctor to see how he's doing as well through the blood work...then see doctor on Wednesday, March 4th to know if the "Sutent" has slowed the cells down or stopped them (put him in remission)...hopefully it has so he's got that extra time...I'd like to see him beat the odds like Patrick Swayze's cancer...not just couple of months but lasted a year and he's still fighting and hoping for another year...I too would like to see that for Tim...

Hoping elf...eryone is doing good weatherwise if not otherwise...much luv to all...have a good day! :D



MySpace Blessings Comments

Sleeping...

We got up late this morning and he was wanting to go to the graveside services for Bonnie at 11 a.m. in Bunkerville...I wasn't feeling up to going but to let him off and sit and wait for him...

We got there late and the services were still going on and I waited...I kept fighting back the tears cause I don't want to be going through this down the road maybe when we're both older but not now...I found the love of my life and I'm not ready to let him go yet...so, I'm praying God will allow him to be here for as long as possible...he offered for Tyke to come by or call if he needed someone to talk with as Tim as been through it with his first wife Pam dying in a single car roll over accident...

After the services, we headed for the post office and got the mail and came home and he immediately laid down...it's been two hours and he's still sleeping...I still feel he over does it being on that leg...I'm just glad the weather was nice and didn't rain on everyone...right now the weather looks awful...like we're going to get more rain...

We are being patient as parents as much as possible...we worry about both our girls...so sometimes we make the first call or even text...see how they are doing!!!!

Also, still waiting on workman's comp finalization of claim which we have 3 more weeks to go to find out and also short term disability through work hasn't come through yet...it's been three weeks...he said he'll make calls next week to give it the rest of the week (through my prompting to wait)...

Unless something else comes up this should be the last posting for a few days to a week...elf...veryone be safe and enjoy your week....lata <3

Sadness...

Today brought sadness...Tim went for coffee with a friend and I was going to do some stuff but you know how one thing leads to another and then you don't get done what you want...

He got back and then we went to see his ma and she is doing well...came home and had lunch in time for him to go to coffee again and I took a nap...was really tired...I woke up feeling like he was over doing it today and worried about him with the way the weather was changing but he got home and said he was fine and wanted to get ready to go to a friend's viewing...pay his respects to Tyk and Barbara and all he knew...I dropped him off at door and Barb took him in and I wasn't up to par to go in so I sat in van off side of premises watching everyone...

It all came flooding back to me when we got the news on Tim and how he was feeling and how we both thought he was on his death bed too soon til we got him off the morphine and saw how with the improvement he's doing getting around again like his old self minus the arm/leg problem...crying less and letting my guard up and letting it slip to the back of my mind that all is okay...ha...sitting there watching everyone...I realized that's going to be me one of these days!!! I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do it...I text Tam and she immediately called me...I explained who had passed away and seeing everyone and how that's going to happen one day...I just cried...so it's fresh in my mind again...I do hope this medicine has slowed down the cancer growth and he goes into remission and he's got that extra time with us...as there is no cure for kidney cancer yet...mRCC...so I will pray and hope that extra time is coming...

Hope all is well with everyone else and have a good week to all and one more thing...pray for Hunter Thurston who has swelling on the brain from an accident...you can read the family blog on www.hunterthurston1.blogspot.com

Be safe and good night...

Brother n law...

I was out Friday doing an errand and when I got home Tim said our brother n law Doug called and was in Cedar City and would like to stop and visit before going onto California...

I called him back and he was at the Arizona mile marker 36...I figured he'd be here pretty quik...gave him about half hour as I was talking with Tim and then I headed over to meet him at Oasis truck parking to pick him up...



Doug is good and looks like he has lost some weight...we chatted and he was really glad to see how well Tim is doing...(up until he saw the doctor on Dec 4 before starting his second round of "Sutent" he was....struggling to get around, eat, sleep, drink...I always had a "babysitter" for him when I had to go somewhere or my doctor appointments...I really thought he was on his death bed...until doctor realized that with the morphine patch it wasn't helping and making him worse and Tim went cold turkey off the morphine pills as well for couple of days and tried again...it started all over again...so doctor said even the morphine pills were poisoning his body to get him off it right away and go back to the lortabs)...

His doctor appointment this past Thursday, doc wanted him to get some physical therapy...he said no, he'd do what he could at home and that's why he's getting around more on the cane and building back up his muscle strength...but he is doing all this with the cane...his left fractured arm-he still doesn't have much mobility to it and we are assuming the fracture is healed???...I still worry he is over doing it...when he lays down to rest most the time he zonks out...sleep...:D

So with this said Doug and Sharon have offered help whenever and wherever we need them but like with everyone who has offered help...we appreciate it and am keeping everyone in mind and I will make those calls when the time comes...it means a lot to us...

We got a few pics (he is going to email me the ones he took) before taking him back to his truck and heading out for California then drop off that load get another one and head to Texas and switch trailers with another driver and head back to Phoenix and hope he has another load to pick up there...be safe and take care...

Follow up...

He had the follow up appointment with the oncologist...everything looking good on blood work and the doctor is curious to do the CT abdomen/kidney and nuclear whole body bone scan to see if the "Sutent" has slowed the progression of the tumors, put it into remission or if there are more tumors...if good he will continue on sutent...if not then he stops it and takes a break and then the doctor will try something else...

The tests should be scheduled for end of February to get results back to the doctor and then see him end of the first week of March to know whether he continues the sutent or stops before going to something else...also, alot will depend on whether his work will allow him to apply for long term disability after short term ends at end of March...at least hopefully until social security comes through...because when the insurance goes over to cobra...for him alone-it will cost $498 a month, for both of us $1104.00...yeah, ouch!!!!! He says depending how everything comes out if not the way he hopes for then he will drop everything and just wait...it's not what he wants to do but there's no way anyone can afford cobra insurance...no wonder a lot of people don't pick up insurance or even see doctors unless they really need to....which is about what I'm ready to do...only as needed.....!!! even with the insurance right now....

That's why it seems disappointing when you follow the rules and try to do everything that is needed and then it's always a waiting game and so much RED tape...and you feel like you keep getting doors slapped in your face...how do people keep up their optimism??? Oh well, just keep trying to go with the flow and HOPE, PRAY and have FAITH it all works out...

Not much else to tell....have gr8t wkend and a TGIF!!!!!!!!!! Be safe and take care...gOoD nIgHt 8D

Workman's Comp...

He had his appointment this morning with workman's comp doctor to determine the PPD (permanent partial disability) and to whether the case is ready to close. He got wore out from doing the different tests and he was sore and tired when the doctor got done...but we still had another stop at the hospital to get his blood work for the oncologist...I didn't argue with him about using the wheelchair...he said he would use his cane that is wasn't that far....uhmmmmmmmmm...we got home and he said he over did it again by walking too much on that right leg even with cane...

He'll be probably sleeping most of tomorrow and staying off that leg as much as possible till Thursday morning for oncologist appointment...but I convinced him that it's too much walking at Dixie...so he agreed to use wheel chair...

Anyway, the workman's comp doctor said with him writing up his reports and sending them to the insurance and the insurance doing their processing it will probably be as long as a month before we get a determination letter from workman's comp...more waiting....ughhhh...that's the hardest part especially for him...I have to keep telling him...lol...to be patient...I don't really have much time...don't know when...well, let's hope that when you get your next bone scan in early March it'll show that the cancer has slowed down and given you more time....

Yes, even though he over did it today...he still had a friend pick him up and go to coffee with the guys...I just hope he doesn't pick up any flu bug or cold...not sure how it would affect him with his immune systems compromised with the cancer...that's why the doctors have said to just cut back on his smoking and not quit...his body is fighting too much right now with the cancer...

Today is/was a big Day for the Nation...let's pray and hope for new changes and a better ecomony....take care and good night...BE SAFE!!!!

Weekly Update...

Hi...me and my sister Robin peeking through the window to see everyone...lol...here's the weekly update....he's been on "coreg" for a week now and his blood sugars are stable as long as he watches what he eats...I test him once a day but do several at fasting in the morning and then did a few tests before breakfast and did the same for lunch and dinner....so "Coreg" hasn't brought his blood sugars up any higher...so far everything looking good. His blood pressure is better but his pulse still is a bit high like in upper 90's and l01-102...so we will try two a day and see how that goes...see if the rapid pulse rate won't come down a bit more....

He's been a bit bored and wanting to get out and restless not sure what to do as he has a tendency to over do things...it usually sets him back a few days to rest up when he's over exerted himself...like Tuesday he wanted cleaned up and showered, walking by using his cane more and then to call a friend to have him come by and get him for coffee...walking more with the cane...walking out into the back yard with the cane...by the time he got back from coffee he was ready for a nap...slept most of yesterday too..

He's done with the second round of "Sutent" for the cancer and he'll be off it for 14 days and start again on the 29Th if the doctor says to continue when he sees the doctor on the 22Nd...he's feeling more discomfort with his right arm that's not broken...he's anxious to call s.s. but I told don't bother as it's too early for any results yet...be patient...

We look for any news about Patrick Swayze on his condition...he went into the hospital Friday, Jan 9, 2009 morning last week with pneumonia and he's improving but not much else. Our prayers are with him and that he continues to fight as he said in the 20/20 Special last week....

Ohhhhhhhhhh, the weather has been so nice...being able to open the front and back doors...until I see he's covering up with a blanket and then I close the doors...don't want him getting chilled and then come down sick...my sister has been sunbathing last couple days and is showing tan lines....plus bike riding...

I don't know of any other news to tell you until next week after the doctors appointments on Tuesday (job related) and then Thursday (cancer related)...if anything comes up I will post it...

Elf...eryone enjoy their weekend coming up, be safe and don't take life for granted!
Much luv to all...good night :D

New medicine...

A new medicine was added today for him on his elevated blood pressure/rapid pulses...he's to take one Coreg daily and if the rapid pulses don't decline he's to take two a day...any wheezing involved stop but he's to go back in two weeks to see how he is doing...leaflet info said possible side effects were raised blood sugars...ouch, just what we don't need...

The doctor also took blood work for an A1C...it's a blood test for his blood sugars and somehow it gets a three month average reading...if it's under 7% the doctor won't be too worried as that is a good average but to still watch what he eats...if it's higher the doctor will put him on a diabetic med...

The bone doctor told workman's comp that his broken arm (in normal circumstances would have been healed by 12/16/08 the cut off date of his last check) That's why the evaluation appointment to determine the closing of the case...but, we also found out that the short term disability will kick in but the turn around time for a check to start coming would be about two weeks and the short term disability at work would not start from when short term disability started but when his accident was on 9-25-08 so the six months for the short term disability would be over at the end of March lets say not in July...So we are hoping that social security disability is approved before all this happens so there is a check coming in and still be on the health insurance what is called cobra (we pay more out of our pockets for the premiums)...so we are still playing the waiting game....hopefully, we won't have to go the next step and start long term disability.

Our youngest Tam, came home this afternoon to get things ready and packed to go back to college on Monday but has to check in on Sunday. With a new Henderson library branch opening this Saturday and her going back to college-her schedule will be hectic and she'll be working every other Saturday at the new Galleria Mall Library...so we will probably see less of her....

My sister Robin made it in last night around midnight from Phoenix and we are happ:D to see her...she will be busy as usual with work when she gets back as she has new training starting...haven't seen her in a few years...she is looking good.

Tim and I watched the "Barbara Walters Special-Patrick Swayze The Truth"...he has terminal pancreatic cancer and a lot of similarities as Tim...what Patrick and his wife Lisa were saying is how and what we have pretty much been saying and feeling...I feel it is a must see if you have a chance when its on air again or if you can see it online somehow, somewhere....a very heart warming and touching story...I do hope his new season premiere of "The Beast" on A&E is good and he's able to do a second season of filming...Patrick has beaten the odds of a few months to a year so far...he's hoping for another year...I pray Tim has that same outcome of beating the odds!

I pray this finds elf...eryone doing well and so far enjoying their New Year! Good night and sweet dreams....<3

Appointment...

Well, he has an appointment on Thursday, Jan 8th to see the family doctor as the oncologist said he needs to see the other doctor for possible diabetes, high blood pressures even if "Sutent" is causing the problem...he has eight more days left on it and then off two weeks again...until he starts his third round on January 29th...

His other appointment got bumped up to Jan 20th for the re-evaluation on his left fractured arm through workmens comp...so that's a whole month without a check coming in...we have a call put into the insurance to see if that can be changed as far as getting another check or two until the appointment since it has been moved to a later date.

We went for a short drive and checked the mail this afternoon (he stayed in the van)and by the time we got home and back into his wheelchair...he said he was wore out...he was saying on the way home that maybe he could go to coffee and visit with the guys but not sure what he would drink since coffee upsets his stomach...I don't think he would last that long not after the trip to the post office and back...

The ramp is really nice...on sunn:D days he can go out the front door pretty much on his own and wheel out into the driveway and sit in the sun and visit with Maria if she is out...lol...he even wheeled over to the street mailbox and checked it for junk mail, etc to empty out this morning...I have to admit I kind of kept an eye out for him...he already said he wouldn't take the wheelchair all the way down to the post office...no way!

I did a bit of laundry and even washed Jack's bed cover...omg...when I took that off he had sooooooooooooooo much hair that got through the fabric onto the foam bed cushion...I had to vacuum it like crazy....then after I put the cover back on he didn't want to get out of it and lay down with me like he usually does when I lay down to rest or watch TV...lol...he's so funn:D...

Not much else to say and wish elf...eryone a good week and will keep you posted...much luv to all and good night :]

Released....

The pics aren't the best but gives you an idea...wound was bigger than that
and it looks red cause the bandaid I took off...kind of looks like a sunburst
on how it healed...these pics don't show it well...if you click on either pics it'll make it bigger and it'll show it better...it really isn't as bad as it looks...honest :D
p.s. any pic on left side of blog can be clicked on to view bigger and also has a caption when you do...

I have been cancelling my wound clinic appts after going Dec 19th as I have been too tired or the weather...I finally went back today to hopefully get RELEASED...I walks in and the waiting room is full with patients...ughhhhhhhhhhhh....an hour behind...overbooked and short staffed....no problem I was sure I was going to be RELEASED....to make it easier on them I showed Phyllis and she said hang on a minute and we'll see if we can get you released in a second...whoo hoo....shucks...NOT...the doctor needs a pic before releasing....so I wait and just before I goes in I see two doctors leave back door and found out after going in they were headed for surgery...I'd have to come back Monday and see the other doctor to be released, ahhhhhhhh...I'll wait til Friday Jan 9th on my next appt...Steven was teasing me...the head nurse was able to YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RELEASE ME!!!!!!!!!!! Again, I will have to say the wound clinic personnel are ALL wonderful people and I will miss them especially Mandi...I took to her right off...bestest bed side manner and very warm hearted person....
I do suggest to anyone who has an open wound that isn't healing to have your doctor refer you there at DRMC old hospital wound clinic...they are really good...you can mention my name...they may not remember me after time but Mandi even worked with Tom Price,C-PA...if anyone remembers him...

Well, his blood pressures are coming down and his blood sugars but I am going to have to keep track of his vitals...and what he eats...the Sutent is affecting them unless his blood work comes back with anything too high or low...I will be calling docs on Monday to see if family doc or oncologist wants to handle definitely diagnosing him borderline diabetic, etc...and get RX for blood sugar strips so my strips aren't getting used up with me on insulin, the pills and diet quit working for me...

We feel really blessed to have this time together...even with our moments like this morning when he hugged me and I fell apart and started crying and he apologized for making me cry and I said it's not his fault...it's in those tender moments I can't hold it back...

There are times we both feels our days run into others and we need to check the calendar to see for sure which day it is...or me in another world seems like cause I'm trying to make sure everything gets done...I told him he's going to have to remind at times if I forget to do something cause I'm trying to get things done....like hon, "I need fresh water" which reminds me...oooops...I got to do it now whilest I'm thinkin' bout it...lol...I haven't done it yet...brb....okay, I'm back to which he reminded me I said I was going to the grocery store even at 8pm tonight...I think I will after I finish this...it will be easier than trying to get up in the morning and then not get out of here til late morning...booooooo...I like shopping when not crowded or noisy....

Well, kids will be going back to skool on Monday as well as our younget back to UNLV on the 12th....so we'll hardly see her especially if her job has her working five days plus some Saturdays....Tam and Shaun have set a date for 10/10/10 to get married...time to finish college and get her teaching job and for them to save for the wedding...

If I going to get shopping done guess better go for now and keep ya posted...much luv to all...be safe!!!

High...

Well, his blood pressures are still bit high...I decided to do every bodies blood sugars this morning cause of the passion fruit smoothies Tam made and the mini chocolate chip pancakes I made...yeah, yummmmmmm.....Tam (124) is okay and my (183)was okay cause I take insulin and no I didn't drink the smoothie that would have really sent me through the roof even with the insulin...and his whooooooooooooooooooooooooooa HIGHER than mine.....247....YEAH now I can see why his blood pressures are HIGH...okay now for some changes drastic....guess time to go back to my green smoothie and try to get him to drink it....and more protein....lean....I can see why he's been feeling hungry and sleeping alot too....I thought it was just the pain meds...

Oh, by the way HAPP:D NEW YEAR Elf...eryone!!!!!! tehe tehe....

We saw the New Year in by watching "Dick Clark's New Year Rock'n Eve" and channel 3 news NBC Vegas....and I'm disappointed they changed the height of where they shoot off the fireworks...300 feet lower instead off the tall casinos...and it SUCKED!!!!!!! It's not the same.....boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ;(

Today, cool sunn:D and b e a u t i f u l .....ful of H O P E ....and I need prayers for my mom....health issues and needs a new caretaker....I wish I was there to help her too....luv u mom...prayers for Charlene and her family...prayers for Cheri Jean and her family...prayers for Sandra/Jeffrey and family...prayers for Maria/Efraim and family...

Better go and elf...eryone be safe today and in the New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!! Much luv to all...